I think that compassion, strength, love, and all of the other good parts of being a person have their own special accounting. I think that if you give them away, you actually end up with more than you started with. I think, though, that if you keep them to yourself or ignore them, they actually diminish, percentages being ticked away like negative interest in the bank.
I think that hatred and anger and rejection use the same accounting. I think that if you give in to them and release them, they grow inside of you. I think though, that if you stop for a minute and think about where they are coming from - exposing their source - they wither away and disappear, like a vampire exposed to sun.
I think that this accounting system also uses balanced books - the positive and negative are inversely linked. I think that good emotions like strength, compassion, love, and happiness are Accounts Receivable, while negative emotions like hatred, anger, rejection, and despair are Accounts Payable. I think that when the value of your positive emotions rises, it subtracts from the value of your negative emotions, and vice versa.
I think that I will start each day from now on inside my mind, putting aside my body and my surroundings for a time in an attempt to balance my books. I think that during this time, I will send some of my positive emotions to people in my life that can use them; today I sent Brian some of my compassion and Dawn some of my strength, hopefully they will get them and be able to use them.
I think that I can feel the accrual of compassion and strength inside of me already, and I think that I am ready for my day now.
